my life sucks

From my childhood, I found myself sucking in everything.

There was not a single thing I could say I'm great at.

In games, school grades, and any other activity I found myself staying average even though I tried my best.

I overthink it, grew depressed, and as a result I lonely myself.

I locked myself in a room for 2 years and tried everything to change myself.

• Challenging my old beliefs.

• Reading every self-help book.

• Spending 10/hr day on YT videos.

I buried myself into a never-ending self-improvement rabbit hole.

After months of consuming information and signing up for courses,

I thought I built a strong mindset, unshakable self-confidence, and a strong personality.

But when I first stepped out of my room I realized it was all illusion.

I can’t stand still, slutting too much when speaking and I can’t even make an eye for a few seconds.

I went back to my room and burned every self-help book.

I realized reading and consuming motivational content alone won’t help you.

I accept I suck at it, I put myself into the unknown and let myself learn by my own experience.

I improved in just a few weeks with actions rather than years of reading and consuming information.

Actions beat everything.

Thanks for reading……

Your Waseem !!!!!!